Baby Pondering

As I am now less than a month away from my 31st birthday and of course, being a female, I start or maybe continue to ponder the possibility of having kids. I have never been one to feel my biological clock tick tocking away as I have always felt that if it is meant to happen, it will happen. More important to me was always finding the right partner to start a family with. If that didn't happen, then I could always adopt a child or maybe I would start selling my imaginary horses and replacing them with real ones instead. To me, there were always options. It never was, "Whoa as me, I am getting older and don't have kids." I have 3 awesome nephews, although too far away, our new puppy definitely makes you think about the responsibilities of having kids, my parents have never once put pressure on me to have kids, and I am happy and healthy so why worry....now.

Celebrities seem to have babies at any age and give the impression that anyone can too. But celebrities also divorce 5 times, live paparazzi infused days and don't seem to have some of the everyday challenges us normal people have, even though they are just people living under extraordinary circumstances. So, why are they our role models. There are a ton of more complications possible for older mothers and that is a lot to think about. However, it is the miracle of life and all too often it is treated like something that needs to be poked, prodded, judged, tampered with, tested, and analyzed by everyone. To each their own.....as long as it isn't over the dinner table and discussing every minute of what fluids are doing when you are trying to get pregnant!!!!

My life is full of wonderful things and I am the first to admit that my mind often wanders towards the things I do not have yet versus the things that I do. I have wonderful friends who would make amazing parents facing major obstacles just trying to get pregnant. Then I hear of other people who are popping out babies without a worry so they can get a larger welfare check. It's hard to understand why things happen the way that they do but you just have to believe that there is a plan for all of us but we can't just wait for that plan to fall into place, you still have to work at it and take responsibility. I am fully taking responsibility for where I am now in life, where I hope to be in 5 years and how it all ends up because no matter how many kids I may have, or horses :), or BOTH, I'll be happy for what I do have.